Apologies

I feel the need to post a few apologies, it will help me feel better.
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I am sorry that you don't believe me. I told you what I was told and if it wasn't the right information, I AM SORRY! You could have double checked the information if you wanted to. I am sorry that you feel like I lied to you. I am sorry that this week was so packed with emotionally charged information that this was too much to handle.
I hope that you will understand that I am sorry that things went crazy, but that I shouldn't be punished because of miscommunication between you and someone else! I miss you, please forgive me.
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I am sorry that you find my desire to do what's best for me so upsetting. I am sorry that you don't want me around. I am sorry that you feel as though I am more of a problem in your life than a blessing.
I hope that whatever the issues are, that they resolve themselves and that one day, you will be able to forgive me and move on.
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I am sorry that my exsistance is hard. I am sorry that my inquires about how things are going are so frustrating and upsetting. I am sorry that I am so hard to get a hold of, since I know you said you were going to get back to me over two weeks ago and I haven't heard from you. (even though I had my phone with me everyday and it never rang.)
I am sorry things are hard and that there is pain. If you would talk to me I would be more helpful and understanding.
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Thank you for letting me apologize, though some of it sounds a little rant-y. I just couldn't keep it in anymore.