Thursday, October 9, 2008

Call Me

Call me Ms. Optimistic.
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Call me The Hyper Queen.
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Call me whatever you want.
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All I know is I am so excited and happy today that I can hardly contain myself. I am happy from the tips of my toes to the ends of my extra long and unshaped graying hair! I AM HAPPY!
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I had cute little girls at work ask me why I was taking a cough drop and said because I was sick. her response...
"Sick? Ni-tole sad. I give you hugs Ni-tole."
How I adore the sweet innocence of children and their unwavering love.
I love being asked to sing the same six songs a million times a day so tone def 2 year olds can sing at the top of their lungs just excited to know the words. I love them begging me to sit and sing with them, a kid on each knee and others trying to find a way to squeeze in. I love the little arms wrapped around me either in happy hugs or wiping the sad tears away.
I especially love moms who come in and tell me that they love me and so do their kids. Mom's who give me gift cards because they appreciate me. I love them. I love my job.
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I love going to the temple. I love knowing that every Thursday around 2:30 I pick up my temple buddy and we head to temple. I love that we both came out today feeling so proud of ourselves because we almost had it word for word. That it was something we both found to be exciting. I love that my coughing fit was met with understanding and kind words from little old ladies. I love the peace and assurance I feel. I love that I know without thinking about it and analyzing it a million time (like I am prone to do) that I am loved, needed and important. I love that I walk out of the temple every week with my temple buddy knowing that we have both grown and become better people. I love knowing that in 7 short days I will be there again.
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I love phone calls about my car being ready ahead of schedule. I love knowing that suddenly I am going to feel better about the most stressful thing in my life. That this one thing will change so many.
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I love that the most random job fell into my lap today. I love that I was excited by it. I love that it starts Monday.
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I love that I am happy. I love that for the first time this year I feel things finally lining up for me. Not everything is, I still have a few major hurdles I am trying to conquer, but I see the light and that is enough for me to know that the dark days are coming to an end.