I just finished taking this cycles clomid. I hate the side affects. Nausea, headaches, hot flashes, insomnia, and crazy mood swings. My sweet husband has been really supportive and kind through this whole process. He rubs my feet every day, always offering to help in any way he can. I am so lucky to be so blessed with the greatest husband for me.
The first round of clomid actually worked for what it was intended for, to lengthen my luteal phase (LP). It went from 8-9 days to a full 14. Without those 12-14 days in an LP an embryo has a very likely chance of implanting. So that lengthening was a huge thing.
It did not result in a pregnancy though.
This month 14 of trying. I knew this would be a hard process for us. I knew it wouldn't be an easy thing for me to get pregnant. I also didn't realize how hard it would become. As friends announce pregnancies I smile and am truly happy for them but one second later, my heart breaks as I am reminded that it is something that isn't working for me. When people say they weren't even trying or that they tried for a month it is like sticking a knife in me.
How can it be so easy for other and so completely not for me. It hurts and I feel less like I am less of a women somehow. I know it isn't true, but it doesn't make it feel any different.
Things will work the way they are supposed to.
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