I hate those days that are going well and then, boom, someone announces they are pregnant. I am always happy for them and excited for their journey and at the same time I am so sad and jealous.
I just want to scream and cry. It is so hard to not want a baby, to want to be a part of that with all the people around me. All my friends my age are done having kids, friends 5-10 years younger are in full swing and I am watching as my youngest siblings get closer to starting families and I wonder if they will have children before me.
My heart hurts.
Things will work out. Things will work out.
HSG on monday and more answers to come. Every day we are closer.
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