After some set backs at the beginning of the year, I have worked hard to make some lifestyle changes. Changed my diet (ok, so not tonight, pizza and ice cream for dinner...but a girl gets one crazy guilty pleasure meal, even if it was the light, all natural, fake sugar, ice cream and wheat pizza crust with more pineapple than cheese, but still more cheese than was probably the best for me) and spent more time at the gym.
For me coming from my family, that is huge. Exercise to most of them is a walk around the mall. Body image has plagued all of us. Anoxerics, bulimics, vegetarians, over-weight and health issues are all in the family. So, seriously taking the reins and changing things is a big deal. Emotionally as well as physically. My weight was a self inflicted punishment. I hid behind it, I blamed failures and heartache on it. Losing that "safety net" and "scape goat" are not easy. It is also not easy to share it with the world. If someone doesn't like me, I can blame it on the weight. If I lose that then what do I blame it on? Like I said, not the easiest life change, but a good one.
I hate missing a work out with my trainer because I like being able to prove I can do things and prove that I am stronger and more motivated than people think. Like this week, doing 200 lbs on the leg press and doing three sets of 15 of pulling my own body weight up from a laid back position. Or doing an insane number of push-ups. I can hold my own and shock a few people on the way too.
I am finally getting back to the running part, which I am totally bummed about. I hope to have done more this year with it, but that I started and haven't given up in August is a big deal.
Another big deal, I had to buy new pants because mine were hanging off me. About two months ago a bought a pair that were slightly snug, I put them on today and they are baggy and hanging off of me. My friends, I can not tell you how that feels! Literally, I don't believe it. My weight is a little stagnant at the moment, but the inches aren't. I have lost 5 inches my friends. 5. I have muscle definition in my legs (always been my best muscles, I have killer legs and they are only getting better) and arms. It is almost crazy how addicting it can become to see those results.
I am no where near done or happy with where I am at. I have lots more work to do. I may have gotten rid of the break-up weight of a few boyfriends but the big one still sits there on my hips taunting me. If there is one thing you can count on, it is the fact that I am tired of hearing his voice when I try something on.
I am telling you my friends, this is a rough journey. It is hard to change something that has always been a part of you. With that said, is it worth it? Yes.
For me coming from my family, that is huge. Exercise to most of them is a walk around the mall. Body image has plagued all of us. Anoxerics, bulimics, vegetarians, over-weight and health issues are all in the family. So, seriously taking the reins and changing things is a big deal. Emotionally as well as physically. My weight was a self inflicted punishment. I hid behind it, I blamed failures and heartache on it. Losing that "safety net" and "scape goat" are not easy. It is also not easy to share it with the world. If someone doesn't like me, I can blame it on the weight. If I lose that then what do I blame it on? Like I said, not the easiest life change, but a good one.
I hate missing a work out with my trainer because I like being able to prove I can do things and prove that I am stronger and more motivated than people think. Like this week, doing 200 lbs on the leg press and doing three sets of 15 of pulling my own body weight up from a laid back position. Or doing an insane number of push-ups. I can hold my own and shock a few people on the way too.
I am finally getting back to the running part, which I am totally bummed about. I hope to have done more this year with it, but that I started and haven't given up in August is a big deal.
Another big deal, I had to buy new pants because mine were hanging off me. About two months ago a bought a pair that were slightly snug, I put them on today and they are baggy and hanging off of me. My friends, I can not tell you how that feels! Literally, I don't believe it. My weight is a little stagnant at the moment, but the inches aren't. I have lost 5 inches my friends. 5. I have muscle definition in my legs (always been my best muscles, I have killer legs and they are only getting better) and arms. It is almost crazy how addicting it can become to see those results.
I am no where near done or happy with where I am at. I have lots more work to do. I may have gotten rid of the break-up weight of a few boyfriends but the big one still sits there on my hips taunting me. If there is one thing you can count on, it is the fact that I am tired of hearing his voice when I try something on.
I am telling you my friends, this is a rough journey. It is hard to change something that has always been a part of you. With that said, is it worth it? Yes.
4 comments:
Great JOB!!! I think you need to post some pics of your progress so we can all ohh and awe over your transformation!
Nikki I'm so proud of you! I do know just how hard it is to break old habits and family traditions! I have lost 50 pounds myself this year and have that much more to go yet. I do feel better after working out though so that is what keeps me going to the gym. Hang in there girlie! You will just keep getting better and better! Love you!
YAY! I am so very proud of you! YAY Nichole! I love you my dear friend, keep up the good work!
Thanks guys! The encouragement is a needed boost. The people who see me everyday don't notice as much, because they see me everyday. I am working hard and will post a pictures soon Liz. :)
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