Oh, My

It has been a while since I posted. I know. Life has been busy and hectic and I have been lazy.

But, I am posting now.

We have been trying to start a family for a year. We have loved just being us and enjoying the getting to be together phase. We have also wanted to expand our family too. We have beenmonitered by my dr and had all kinds of tests done. We knew I had PCOS when we started but it got worse in the last year. I have had to start taking med daily and while they have made a huge difference it is still not doing enough.

So, this week, we started Clomid. Yep, fertility drugs are in our life. It's wonderful to know we are moving forward in our journey and scary at the same time. There are all kinds of concerns that come with this too.

I get nauseated with almost every drug I take. I found one antihistamine that works without side affect. One. And pain killers are hardly worth taking because I get to sick to my stomach.

Clomid is no different.

I am so sick I could die. If I sit still it isn't so bad. The problem is I can sit through this week. Also, I am already a cryer. I cry all the time. I cried today because my husband offered to throw out food in the fridge that had passed its prime. Not sad that we hadn't eaten it, or mad that he brought it up, but because he is the best husband in the whole world because he would do that for me.

I need to get a grip. I need it to be Saturday. I need to be pregnant so I don't have to take this again.

Realistically, I know the chances of one cycle being enough is slim. Slim indeed but for once, can't I be the positive exception?