The Hulk

One of my favorite movie story lines is from The Avengers. Everyone wants to know how the hulk can manage to keep the beast from taking over. He evades the question over and over until eventually he tells everyone his secret, "I'm angry all the time." Seems odd that I can relate to that but, I do. I am not angry all the time but I am always aware of my frustration and sadness about our infertility. There are days when I am normal and things don't bug me. Then there are days when the little thing triggers everything and the beast takes over. I am sad and angry and have no patience. I can blame the fertility meds that change dosage and kinds regularly. I can blame stress. I know that I need to learn to "cage the beast" that is always waiting just under the surface. Please don't hold that beast against me when I lose it. Realize I don't like who it makes me and I struggle daily with keeping it in check. It is hard every day but I am trying and I am getting better, I hope.