Oh Cysts

So I was super happy to have ovulated but I am beginning to think this cycle is not going to be a good one. I have had a lot of pain today and I have a feeling that I am dealing with a cyst or two. I am so bummed. I hate cyst pain. It is just one more reminder of how my body doesn't work like other women's do.

I have had cysts since I was 18 or so, at least I know at 18 it was cysts. sometimes just little ones and sometimes big ones. Ones big enough to cause so much pain that I puke from the pain. I know what to do and how to handle it but I hate that it is something I know. I am wishing I didn't know how to handle it.

Getting pregnant this cycle is so much less likely now. Which makes every single day waiting to start a period or until cycle day 35 so I can get provera is miserable.

Rough Patch

We took a break in February and just enjoyed each other and life. It was good for us. Hard to let go a little but so good.

I had some set backs this month with my cycle and had to have another round of tests. If I have one more pelvic exam I may just die. I hate them so much! And so many tests...ttc is the worst in that way.

So, I have started on provera (simulated progesterone) to start my period. Then on to the next dosage up of clomid, 100mg. I am so not looking forward to the side affects but am looking forward to this month being a good one. I have great hopes that I will get my BFP soon.