Sick

I love my hubs. So much.

He is sick. Very sick. He has the flu and has been miserable. We finally got the fever to under 100 regularly (down from 103!!) and medicine from the dr.

The one major problem we still have...sleeping. He wakes up 3 or 4 times a night, coughing up a lung and with the chills. I am a light sleeper and Everytime he wakes up, I wake up. It makes me so angry! I want to bad to sleep through the night so I don't get so sick.

He wakes up, goes to the bathroom, turns on all the lights, coughs and then comes back to bed. I have to remind him to go take more medicine so he can sleep.

And he isn't taking naps. Which is all I want to do.

And while there is always a chance that the clomid worked this cycle, I'm betting against it. Which seems like such a waste of a cycle. When we pay to be extra fertile it really makes my heart hurt to feel like we wasted a cycle. Especially because paying for a cycle takes all the fun and closeness out of the process.

And I have felt so sad to hear about so many new babies to families who seem to quickly and easily add to themselves. I'm happy for them, just jealous at the ease which it happens for them and how lucky they are to not experience the heartbreak of infertility.

In other news, while at the dr a few days back I hopped on the scale and I had lost another 5 lbs this month. Yippee!

Small victories are what I have to collect to win this war.

Cough, Cough

It's that time of year, when I get sick. Poor Jared is beginning to learn what this really means.

The doctor shook his head when I came in. Bronchitis, sinititus and out if control asthma were enough to warrant a few prescriptions and orders to get to bed and drink lots of fluids.

I obliged and went home and took the prescription strength cough syrup which still has me a little groggy. Off to work I went anyway...I am so lucky to have my sweet Jared who makes dinner and rubs my back and always makes sure the humidifier is full.

Giant Kisses

I'm not feeling well, so Jared resorted to this and a bowl if cereal for dinner. Poor guy! Looks like he like it though.

He has been so good at taking care of me, I am super grateful.

Its Getting So Close!

I'm in the home stretch of waiting for he cruise. I can hardly wait! We have booked everything but the airline tickets so far. those come this week.

We are doing some amazing things on the cruise. A jeep tour, swimming with dolphins, lots of beaches, zip lines, Mayan ruins, cooking with a renowned chef...and I can hardly wait. I have been working on this vacation forever it seems and I can hardly wait to have my chance to just take a week away from everything and enjoy the single life I love so much.

I have lost enough weight that I am happy to put on a bathing suit and play in the water and that feels good! The new wardrobe of sale rack items for the cruise makes me happy. I love that I got some super cheap clothes at the end of the season that I liked for the cruise. I can come home and not wear them again and feel like I got the $3-$5 worth I spent on my of them. I can even zip up my end of the year goal dress! It doesn't look great yet, but it zips and that is half that battle. I am not even sure that it will fit at the end of the year.

This last month was a battle, with being so sick and all, but I have learned to rely more on the love of my father in heaven. What greater blessing could I possibly be given? I am amazed daily at his love for me and I just live each day to the fullest in hopes that I live up to the potential he has given me.

Prayers

I have strep again. Please, please, please, keep me in your prayers. I can't afford (in so many ways) to have the tonsils taken out that the doctors want me to. I need to be healing and I just don't have the luxury of taking another week off to try to get over this again.

Seriously

I am so miserable I could just curl up and die. I have literally been sick since the 7th of August. I am running a temp of 100.9 and I would rather spend a whole day with ex's than be sick one more day. Please keep me in your prayers, I am at my wits end.

Blessings of Teaching

I taught a lesson about Job today in Gospel Doctrine. It was such a blessing. It made me realize how much I have been tried (haven't we all?) and how many blessings I have been given because of that. I am so blessed to realize that my Father in Heaven loves me so very much to try me. I am so grateful for that testimony of my savior and that there is a plan for me. While it has not been the plan I imagined for me, it is the right one.

This is the 3rd week that I have been under the weather. I am bummed about it. Strep, with bronchitis, an allergic reaction to medication, poison ivy and I am back to a stomach bug again. I am so done being sick. It is one of those moments that I am grateful I am not a mom or wife...cause I am a whiny and unhappy sick person. I don't think I could handle taking care of others when I have felt this bad.

I have been so blessed in the last few weeks as well. I have a pretty great life and I am so happy, minus being sick.

Ew

I stayed home from church today. I hate staying home. But my poor exhausted body was not having it today. My eyes are swollen and goopey, my throat is sore, my head is pounding and I have snot. Lots of it. It is June and I am home with Allergies. It just tells you that we are finally in spring here in UT, even though it is the end of June. I'm hoping this means one or two hot months and then come September cooling off until December and then snow (if we must) from December-Feb. You think that is possible? I don't think so, sadly.

Bribings

I took Nyquil last night and while I slept well, I did not wake up very well. I had to bribe myself to get out of bed by saying I would take myself to McDonalds for breakfast. An egg mcmuffin really isn't that great.
I am starting to feel a bit better. I even did a few miles today, which is progress. My 5k is in a few weeks and I am beginning to get the nerves. I am betting I will be addicted though.

Bits and Pieces

I am tired my friends. So tired! I have been out every night for the past two weeks and while I may be home tonight, my new Bishopric will be stopping by to meet me. So its almost like I will be going out. Is it too much to ask for a night in?

Not to mention that I have this lovely cold that keeps me up at night as I cough up a lung.

I am looking forward to Saturday which I have completely booked with naps, movies and nothing. We will just have to wait and see if that actually happens though.

In other news, I am anxiously awaiting some test results that I should get today or tomorrow. Why won't the phone ring when you want it to?

Oh well, off to get some more work done. I'll share some of my big new projects soon.

Chilly with a Chance of Brr...

Well hello all. I am so happy to be back to blogging. Last week I got a very nasty cold that just knocked me out. I am still coughing but mostly on the mend. I hate to be sick.

I am also beginning to plan for the holiday season. When I get sick I watch QVC, I know, it makes no sense, I just do. Well last week while coughing up a lung I enjoyed a day on the couch with Kleenex and Christmas QVC. I laughed at half the stuff that I would never buy and things I wished I had the money for. Like a 12 foot lit tree that I have no where to put but would love to have. It kicked off the fall just perfectly for me. Got me into the mind frame of the season. I do all my Christmas shopping by the beginning of November so I have to be on the ball here, I am getting close to my deadline! haha.

There is already so much going on. It is my favorite time of year, the weather gets chilly and sweaters come out and I get to enjoy the wonderfulness of my beautiful and warm coat collection. Even though a trial try-on session revealed a few that can now only be warn with VERY heavy sweaters or lots of layers, I do not love them any less. I can hardly wait to bust them out. Tomorrow the high is supposed to be 55 degrees, so I think I will have a start to the season.

I have started to rack leaves, made a few loaves of pumpkin bread, homemade apple cider, and soups. Lots of homemade soup.

I hope you are all having a wonderful fall and enjoying the sights, smells and sounds of it all. I know that I am.

Drat

I took pictures and had some great posts coming up, but alas, I got this nasty cold and when I am awake I am messing with the goo coming from my nose and the gunk from my lungs. So then I sleep...and sleep...and sleep.

So, when this clears up I will talk again with you guys. Not to worry.

Almost Time

Well guys, it is almost time. That is right...vacation is calling my name. Can you hear it? *Nichole....Nichole....*

And as we know the week before is full of eagerness, packing and sickness. Yeah, the sickness kills me. I got food poisoning on monday and spend monday night and tuesday with my best friend, the toilet. I puked and puked. When I was in high school I used to sleep next to the wall that shared the wall of the bathroom that my Dad used in the morning. My alarm clock was his puking in the mornings. It brought back flash-backs to those days and suddenlyI felt like my dad.

I ran around wednesday and thursday trying to catch up only to find myself coughing, sneezing, sore throat and runny nose were hot on my trail on friday. So as I load up on dayquil, I am hoping that it all gets out of my system by tuesday night.

Oh, and work this week was crazy! I had some woman accuse me (and another co-worker) of pulling her kids around the room and such. Well, video speaks for its self lady. Obviously we didn't and the video proved it. Moral of the story, if you don't have real proof, don't claim you do.

Went to the drive-in last night with some friends...so much fun! I was so happy that we got to get out and laugh. It was super fun.

Ok, enough of my week. I have pictures and I will post some soon. Maybe even get a few vacation ones this week too, haha!

Haha

So today we were hungry at work at he gym. So at 10am we got online and ordered pizza. Yeah. So we had it snuck into the gym and enjoyed some pizza. At 10:30 in the morning. It was funny. I love my co-workers and the fun we have some days.

I have been a little out of it lately, but I have a doctors appointment later this week. It should tell me if it is as serious as we think. One way or the other it will be fine.

I'll post more later about the last week or so and some great pictures and video.

Sadness and Faith

I am sorry for the absence lately...it has been a crazy few days. I had an allergic reaction to some medication (ick!), got food poisoning from Olive Garden (double ick!) and there was a serious accident.

On Thursday night two guys were running from the police and ran a red light and t-boned a car here in town. One of the passengers, Blake, was in my ward and was a friend. Both people in the t-boned car were declared dead on the scene. The other passenger was a friend of my friend Cassie. The two running from the police, minor injuries. It has been a crazy couple of days in dealing with this in general. I was not nearly as close to him as others were but as a ward we grieve the loss of a member who was 19 and waiting to see where he would serve his mission. It reminded me that you never know when things will end and that you need to take advantage of the time you have.

Thank you to all of my dear friends for the moments you have made my life amazing.

I've been workin' on...

Well, not the railroad, but working. I am finally feeling better (thank goodness! two weeks of being sick was going to kill me!) and I headed back to work this week. I was going to be slow going and ease my way back into it, but that didn't happen. My normal front desk girl got the flu and so now I am covering for her. That means (brace yourselves!) that I start my work day at 8:30 am and end at 9:30 pm. For those who are mathmatically challenged, that is a 13 hour day. I love my job(s) but this is crazy!

So I leave you with this thought,

"Careers, like rockets, don't always take off on schedule.

The key is to keep working the engines."

-Gary Sinise

Jello

Well I apologize for my long absence. I try to be more on top of my blog, but it was a crazy few weeks here. I will spare most of the details, not to worry.

I was one of the lucky few to be hit with Influenza A this year. It knocked me out for over a week, no work, school, play or anything else. And I also found out that I am allergic to Codeine. So it was a long few weeks for me. The good thing is today I finally ate slightly solid food!Raspberry jello and I have a great relationship.

Today is also a special day. I celebrate my 29th birthday. Well, technically at least. Because I have been sick I post-poned the celebration until I am on solid food and have enough energy to do something. I am looking forward to that day.